The other night, (or rather morning, it was 3 am) I looked over my shoulder in bed and couldn't control my laughter. I saw a sleeping husband, and a baby playing with her daddy's lips. I felt like I went to sleep 18, and woke a grown up.
Where did these people come from? And why were they in my bed?
I feel like time is just slipping through my fingers. I struggle everyday to hold on to those perfect moments and seem to keep coming faster and faster.
I never knew motherhood would be this fulfilling.
I never knew that it was possible to put someones needs completely before my own. I never knew I could feel the pain she would feel. I never knew sitting on the couch watching cartoons with my girl would be so fun. I never knew how much work being a mother would be. I never knew I could stare at a sleeping baby for so long. I never knew pb&j smashed in my purse would not phase me. I never knew feeling my baby's love for me would feel like I was going to burst. I never knew snot, blood and tears were all part of the game, and I would be ok with it. I never knew I was capable of cleaning up so many messes. I never knew how magical Disneyland could be. I never knew I could be so proud of such a small person.
I never knew I would love my husband so much more when I saw him as a father.
I never knew I the capacity my heart had to love,
until I became a mother.
I am a mother.
I
love my role as a mother.

I take my job very seriously, and I think I am doing a good job.
At least I know I am doing the best job that I know how to do.
The other night, when there was a party going on in my bed at 3 am, I was so happy that I couldn't help but to laugh. Kate was hyper. We were tired. But, it was one of those perfect moments.
"I ride Daddy horsie!" I heard her whisper in the dark,
and I quickly warned Matt, "Brace yourself!"
And sure enough she jumped and landed right on his stomach.
I have never laughed so hard in my life.
And never been happier I was suddenly 25 and a wife and mother.