I have had very few dreams about Ruby since she passed away. The other night I dreamed about her, and it was so real, and so clear that I wanted to record it before it escaped my memory.
I had left a room for a second, and was coming back when I saw a little toddler. I did not see her face clearly, but knew she was mine. I remember thinking how tall and slender she was. And she was walking! I quickly started clapping with excitement and said, "She is walking!" The other person in the room looked at me like I was crazy and said, "You never knew she could walk?" I remember feeling really confused and embarressed. Well of course she can walk, she is nearly two, but why was the this first time I had seen her?!
When I woke up and started to replay the dream in my mind, I knew it must have been Ruby I was dreaming about, and it all made sense.
I am so heartbroken that I have to wait, what seems like an eternity, before I get to see her again. I can't wait to watch her walk, and play, and smile and giggle. The dream gave me a little boost and reminded my gently that she is never too far away.
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hearing about your dream kind of took my breath away. It's hard to imagine what it might be like to loose a child. Pain so deep that my mama heart/brain just doesn't let me go there. When I read this I really just ached; loving someone so much but not being able to see them grown and change. I am glad you've been given experiences to remind you how close she still is.
What a sweet dream, despite making you miss Ruby so much.
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