LIfe at 14 weeks

(July 5, 2010 14 weeks 2 day)

I find myself going back to my archives of 07-08 searching for post about my pregnancy. When did I start feeling better? What helped with the morning sickness? Wow, was I this big with Kate? Anyway. I felt like I should documenting a little of this pregnancy for my future self.

Whenever I am even 6 hours late, I take a pregnant test. I just don't have the patience to wait. But after going off birth control, my body had a really hard adjusting and it was a long 2 or 3 month struggle. I did not even really know when I was ovulating, or if I even was when I got pregnant. So, one week I was doing my work out with my friend at the park, and could barely run because "woofies" hurt so bad. That was my first inkling. I made Matt buy a test on his way home from somewhere that night. We were chatting on the couch around 11pm, and he said, "Are you going to take it or what?" And so I just grabbed it up, and went into the bathroom. For some reason, I really thought I wasn't pregnant and didn't want to make a big deal of it. When I started to see that little pink line appear, I literally ran back out to Matt, and kept, saying "Um..!! Oh my gosh!...LOOOOK!" It was such a funny moment. Matt said I had tears in my eyes, and it was the cutest thing he had ever seen. We just kept laughing. I guess that is what we do when we are emotional.

The next two weeks were great. I felt so happy, and excited, and energized. But then 6 weeks hit.
On the button. Then I felt depressed that I had to go through 3/4 terrible months again. Felt a little trapped in my own body. The first month was the worst. Then I got some Zofran, and that helped SO MUCH. I also take Unisom at night. This time around I am eating more frequently, and that makes a world of difference. The nights were the worst. I dreaded going to bed, because I felt like I was dying.

I think #2 is different in a way. With Kate we were SO excited to become parents, start a new chapter in our lives, and the anticipation of the unknown was exiting too. This time, I almost feel like I am cheating on Kate. I know it sounds silly. But it is true. I am really happy to be pregnant with another daughter, but I really want to soak up the next months of just me and Kate while I can. It is really hard for me to think outside of just being pregnant when I feel sick as well. If I remember that I get another beautiful little girl in the end, then everything is manageable and I am thrilled.

At 12 weeks we had an appointment and Dr. May could not find the heartbeat after searching for a LONG 10 minutes. I looked at Matt and he seems at freaked out as I was, and realized how much I really want, and already love this baby. We were sent to have an ultrasound to check things out, and everything was fine. (He was looking WAY too low) It was just a relief to see that tiny heart beating away. We could see all of her limbs, fingers, spine, little head, and brain. It was a moment I won't forget. For 15 minutes I thought I might have lost her. That day we became attached to this little baby.

At 14 weeks, I can say I am doing better. Nights are almost great. There are a several hours in the day when I feel yucky, but that is better than the WHOLE day, right?

We went up to Costa Mesa to have an early ultrasound this past weekend to find out the sex of the baby. Matt's mom, and two sisters were visiting, and came with us. My mom, dad, sister, brother in law, and nieces came along too. Everyone thought it would be a girl, expect Jamie, and my Dad. It was a really fun moment of celebration, and I am so glad everyone was there to share that with us. Baby girl was bouncing and flipping all round.

So, one trimester down, 2 more to go!